Sharp Objects by Gillian Flynn

Jumping a little late on the bandwagon here but better late than never!

Paperback copy of Sharp Objects by Gillian Flynn

I’ll immediately say it: I watched the HBO miniseries first. I thoroughly enjoyed it and finished in two days. Having watched the show first definitely affected my experience reading though. I didn’t find it as creepy as the show. Flynn writes beautifully, easy but heart wrenching to read. If you’ve read other Flynn novels or similar books, Sharp Objects is probably up your alley!

Camille, returning to her hometown of fictional Wind Gap, Missouri to report on two child murders, is immediately reminded of all the reasons she left. I found this relatable, though not for the same reasons of course. Returning home is strange. You see all these people you barely knew, acting like you were friends back in the day. You see all these old friends and there’s no way to recapture the magic of elementary, middle, or high school relationships. The streets seem the same but you feel out of place even though it used to be somewhere you knew so perfectly. And for someone with Camille’s experiences, coming home isn’t a happy wave of nostalgia.

I truly hated Camille’s mother, Adora. I knew that from the show but reading it hit me harder. This woman is horrid, as hate-able as Professor Umbridge in Harry Potter. Even though I knew what would happen, every dig from Adora felt fresh. In the show, I felt like Camille spoke up more but in the book, the reader had more insight into her thoughts. She didn’t always speak her mind (understandably since Adora always had a scathing reply) but we saw how stunted Camille was, having grown up in that environment of indifference and hurt.

When I say “stunted”, I am referring to her mental growth. Camille is obviously an adult but returning to her hometown stirs up old memories and familiar habits. She goes out with her more-than-half-her-age-younger sister Amma to a high school party, drinking and popping a couple pills. There are a couple other questionable things Camille did that I think match with her inability to truly and fully grow as an adult but I’ll let the reader enjoy those surprises. It was frustrating reading about these mistakes, though I don’t blame Camille. Yes, there are plenty of people that experience trauma and adjust quickly but there are just as many who can’t quite get back to who they once were or move forward.

Typically when I read a book I already know the ending of due to TV or movies, I expect to feel the same or stronger emotions because there tends to be more detail or it’s just written better. With Sharp Objects, I didn’t really have that reaction. The ending was certainly good and different from what was presented in the show. However, I didn’t feel that shocked, even with the new information presented.

This is definitely why I prefer reading the book first. The show was a great adaptation that didn’t stray too, too much from the book. It made the book, not boring, but expected. That’s my fault for not reading first! I would recommend checking out the book from your local library if you’re interested in the show. It’s a short book that keeps you interested. I knew the ending and I still kept myself up late at night, reading that next chapter. Full disclosure: I absolutely had a nightmare the day I finished the TV show, which was the same day I started the book. So maybe, unlike me, space it out a little bit with something fun in between!

Note: There are mentions of various forms of self-harm, including addiction and cutting. Some parts are difficult to read.

Music: The Sharp Objects playlist on Spotify, which includes Led Zeppelin, The Acid, and Leon Bridges

Chase Darkness with Me by Billy Jensen

If you love true crime, I bet you’ll love this book!

The podcast My Favorite Murder has introduced me to many things: a love of the morbid and unsettling, books, TV shows, movies, podcasts. It’s been a fun journey getting to expand my circle of interests and Chase Darkness with Me is an excellent culmination of those interests.

Hardcover copy of Chase Darkness with Me by Billy Jensen

If you’ve listened to Murder Squad with Billy Jensen and retired Contra Costa County detective Paul Holes, you’ve probably heard Jensen mention his recently published book. A reporter for many years, Jensen has written a lovely (maybe a strange word to use in reference to murder and rape and other horrid topics) book, telling his story along with the many unsolved cases he is working to solve.

Each chapter connects to one another, effortlessly weaving multiple cases together and telling us a bit about Jensen’s life as well. He uses direct quotes from family and friends of the victims, allowing them to tell their experience in a way, through the book. He also discusses his methods, how he analyzes crime scene videos, and utilizes social media and familial DNA techniques. He’s really written a how-to book of assisting detectives on unsolved cases, without it being step-by-step. He walks the reader through his thought and action processes, staying totally transparent the whole way through. Jensen doesn’t sugarcoat things: he has had plenty of cases that turn up no leads, nothing he can turn over to detectives and say, “I think this is it.” But the ones he figures out? The reader can feel his joy through the pages, a real sense of hey, maybe I could and should do this too.

Like I said, Jensen doesn’t sugarcoat things. The addendum to the book goes into depth about how anyone can get started helping to solve cold cases like he does through social media and getting loud. It seems tough, with long hours on-call and a low success rate. But it truly felt like Jensen is rooting for us, giving us all the tips and tricks we need to begin this journey. He’s honest and harsh while staying optimistic and clever. I appreciated how he writes and the content he was writing.

Compared to other true crime books, this isn’t a deep dive into one particular case. Jensen certainly provides plenty of details about specific crimes but doesn’t overwhelm the reader. If we look at I’ll Be Gone in the Dark by Michelle McNamara, a close friend of Jensen’s, there is so much analysis of one person’s crimes. Keeping track of the names and places was challenging for the layperson like myself. Jensen’s book piques the reader’s interest, allowing you to do some research on your own if you so desire.

I enjoyed the book overall and left with a better understanding of how social media can be used to solve crimes. It seems foolhardy to put this type of sensitive material in the hands of random civilians. Ideally, everyone would follow the rules Jensen laid out in the addendum and listen to law enforcement and the families. Unfortunately I can see that not happening. Jensen references the online community Reddit “solving” the Boston Bomber identity, which turned into a horrible spectacle. That’s why it’s important to lay out guidelines. Hopefully that sort of thing happening dwindles even as more civilians continue to help. The effort needed to do something like this seems like it would deter people from being reckless, so we’ll see.

Music: Portugal. The Man and DNCE (obsessed with Cake By the Ocean, yes I know I’m years late)

Heroine by Mindy McGinnis

Note: I will do my best to stay away from any spoilers but may slip up. Apologies!

Hardcover book of Heroine by Mindy McGinnis

The book starts with a disclaimer for any recovered or recovering addict to “proceed with caution” and I want to extend that to include anyone who knows or knew someone with a drug addiction. I found this book extremely difficult and uncomfortable to read at times and for those people that have even more of a personal connection to this topic than I do, I can’t imagine how it would feel to read this.

I read this book in about four days because I absolutely needed to know what happened next to the main character, Mickey Catalan, star softball player in her last year of high school. The book opens with “When I wake up, all my friends are dead.” Mindy McGinnis, the author, doesn’t shy away from telling the reader exactly what they are getting into. I knew the book dealt with addiction but had no idea how deep it would get. The first sentence immediately let me know it was going to be diving pool deep.

The book then takes a step back, to set the scene before bringing us up to date when Mickey wakes up and her friends are dead. I experience the horrific car accident that has the potential to sideline Mickey and her best friend Carolina from their senior softball season. How it’s necessary for them both to have an Oxy prescription. How Carolina fights through but Mickey gets pulled under by drugs, eventually getting sucked into that world, with new friends and new doses, while telling herself that because it’s for softball, it’s okay. Because she will stop when the season is over.

It was easy to forget that we already know how the book will play out to a certain extent (thanks to the first sentence) but I still felt anxiety while reading. I audibly gasped at certain parts, scared that Mickey was going to be caught even though I was begging for her to realize what she was doing to herself and get help. I wanted to continue reading but frequently closed the book to let my stomach settle from unease. It was tough going.

I think a lot of people can find something to relate to in this book, whether that is related to drugs, loving something so much you’ll do anything for it, being shy and uncomfortable in your own skin, or an intense family dynamic. We all have something (or somethings) in our lives that creates pressure. Mickey, still just in high school, never really built the coping skills necessary to get through other tough aspects in her life. For her, drugs didn’t just combat the pain from the car accident, “but how I could find words when it was in my system” (p. 389), for example. I think that’s probably similar for a lot of people. You get a prescription for a legitimate reason then realize how it “improves” other parts of your life, not noticing the damage it’s actually doing.

Overall, I would absolutely recommend this book for any enjoyer of young adult literature. McGinnis is a fantastic author, completely engaging the reader into the struggle of the characters. I read The Female of the Species as well, which blew me away and encouraged me to pick up Heroine because I knew how well McGinnis writes. Again, be cautious before starting but I do hope you enjoy it as much as I did.

Music: I obsessively listened to Mitski over and over while I read this.